Everyone has multiple selves, how you act around your friends, your parents, professionals, and alone. These multiple selves are something everyone posses in which they make a person feel more comfortable in any given situation. I may be only speaking for myself when saying I constantly make imaginary scenarios I would love to live in my head, but it is a mechanism that keeps me motivated in my daily life.
When thinking about my project, as usual I approached it with a very creative and imaginative eye, rather than a more literal one. My “normal” self is the middle portrait. I captured myself in what I would consider a typical setting for myself. I have my iconic chocker and one of my many strange outfit combinations. Although I have my daily makeup and accessories, I often change my daily style vastly. Sometimes I feel uncomfortable with my love for different styles. One day I want to dress super girly, another day laid back, and then the third super grungy. I occasionally evaluate myself and wonder if my constant change is due to me subconsciously playing a role for other people. However, then I always realize it is because I’m inspired from a wide variety of cultures.
From this thought I got the idea for my two different portrayals. The first is the one on the left. As I’ve previously discussed I attribute a lot of who I am to generations of women from the past. One that I’m extremely fascinated with is the 50’s housewife character. It is ironic that I choose this because I don’t really ever picture myself in the future being married. I have many goals I want to accomplish in the future and that is more important to me. Thus, to convey this idea I placed the subtle gun in with the bouquet. I feel that there is this certain sexuality and objectifying gaze about the housewife that exists in society. I constantly feel itemized by men in my life, in which they look, admire, then move on to the next. This feeling of being just an object is something that I really struggle with. Thus, I there in the surprise in the bouquet of flowers as a warning that makes you look twice and take a second guess. Secondly, is the 20’s flapper girl. I’m obsessed with the culture of women of this time, especially regarding the sexual liberation. I think it is the first time in history that women started to take control of their relationships with men. I find great strength and confidence in my gender when reflecting on this character. As I just mentioned, my relationship with the male gender is something I really struggle with, finding the balance of staying true to myself and caving to patriarchal pressures. Thus, this character of the 20’s flapper is somewhere I find liberation and comfort. It has given my this strange value regarding sex in which is almost look at it as an art-form. I think the women of this time exude a rare beauty that has died out over the years. So, with that I define myself as a women composed of many characters each bringing something unique to the table.
Cyber Guurl 